Friday, November 27, 2009

Moving on

There is a new sense of belonging that I have never felt before in my life that now I feel with every ounce of my being.

I own my home.

I can't explain the extreme fatigue combined with extreme happiness that I feel this week after laying wood floors, moving all the boxes myself, cleaning the old place and bumping into boxes and cutting my fingers opening and breaking down boxes, installing new toilets and figuring out what it truly means to come home.

Home.

I once thought truly it was where you made it, and that is true to a point. But there is nothing like knowing the walls are yours to break or make.

I am home.

Photos to come as soon as I find the cord to download the images from my camera!

xoxo

Monday, November 16, 2009

Word vomit

Ok so I think I made a new friend. I will call her 'B' here.
B is younger than I and is about the age of my real little sister who is 4 years younger than I(I also have an ex step sister that is almost 17) and she is a newly single mom (I was once a single mom) with two darling little girls that are exactly the ages of my two youngest girls and happened to be in their same classes and just happened to be best friends!

So I'm excited because she is young and cool and has the nice hair and dresses really cool and for some reason she gets along with me. I feel like that little dog on the looney toons cartoon just all excited to hang out with the big cool bulldog named spike- As seen here-



As I have said previously, its been a long while since I made new friends that I can be in the same room with, much less cool easy going friends, everyone here seems to be so grumpy, so I tend to get excited and I do something that I absolutely hate.

I tend to word vomit.


I just get so excited that I am talking out loud to someone else that the words start just spewing out words and before long I'm tense and giggling and not making any sense at all.

Ass.

The weird thing is that I am totally conscious of this behavior and inside my mind is screaming "SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP!!!"
but I can't. I am almost compelled to keep talking until I have made a complete ass of myself.

But for some reason she seems to be Ok with this because we went to the zoo together and she put up with hours of my assness she asked me to go with her to see New Moon. You know the second installment of the Twilight Movies.

I'm stunned! Have I found someone that can tolerate my dorkiness?? Hmmm...

So I see her today and she was so kind as to watch my kids as I was late picking up the girls from school, we got stuck late buying the wood floors for the house we just bought. So we start to talk and there it goes again I couldn't stop it.

Word Vomit.

UGH! I need to take up drinking or something so I won't be such a darn spaz!!!

So we'll see if we make it to movie day.

I know I know.... I really have to look into getting this "ASS" stamp removed from my forehead.

Monday, November 9, 2009

All set to move....

Ok so we got news over the weekend that the roof has been repaired and given a two year warranty that transfers over to us so we are back on schedule to move! yay!!! One week until closing!!!

So I have been like UBER busy....UBER...yes.

Lets see how i can make this short...

OH BIG NEWS!!!

I am no longer homeschooling.
The wonderful charter school that my son was lucky enough to get into called that there was an opening for my daughter!

She started today.

So I am still in shock. Left alone in the eerie silence of my home with a little joy mixed with a little sadness and a little feeling without purpose mixed with a little excited because I can think of what I want to do.
I had given up on my own goals to get her where she needed to be educationally. With constant judgment from people with their useless opinions it was hard. I had to constantly fight against the inner need to validate myself through others eyes.
Yeah that was rough.

But No one can tell me what my child really needs. In her elementary school she went up until the 4th grade where in a grading system that 4 being the best and 0 being the worst she started the first trimester with 3's and the second trimester with 2's and ended with 1's yet still was passed on to the 5th grade.

I don't think so.

So I felt that I HAD to take action. And I am SOOOOOOOOOO glad that I did.
Even though we were sure she would be home until next year for the 7th grade, this year I chose curriculum materials that reflected a combination of 5th 6th and 7th grade. I wanted her to waltz right in and feel confident with her abilities right off the bat next year but that turned out to be sooner!

It worked for my son that was home schooled for the 6th grade. He is one of the school's prized students academically, also he was selected twice to speak and write on charter schools, as the right to have charter schools at all is coming up for review and the state board of education has been visiting the charter schools to decide if they get to continue.

From what I know just this short 6 months I think the board of education needs to be looking at all the OTHER schools and threatening them!

This charter school is using the same funding per student but with their modern computer programs and ability to compile each childs educational data DAILY for parents to log in and view or opt to receive emails- their test scores in EVERY subject are so much higher and the atmosphere is so much more positive than any regular public school. And they are FREE! But because of the limits the state has put on charter schools they are in a small building for now and have a waiting list of 1800+ students. Its like winning the lottery if you get in. So you get the magnitude of what has happened to us with TWO children getting in!!!!

I feel so blessed that both of my oldest children are able to attend school there. With average public schools letting them down so badly it is nice to see that it wasn't too late.

The other great thing is that this wonderful public school has grades 4 through 12th grade! So its a good chance that they will get this great education all the way until college starts!

Now I have to pray and hope that my other two daughters can get in for 4th grade and have the same opportunity.

Us Moms never rest when it comes to our babies do we?

I think that is a good thing. So keep up the good work Moms! Together we will change the world one baby at a time!;-)

Ok time to clean and get ready to start a new life.... such possibilities...

xoxo
Gigi

Monday, November 2, 2009

changes....AGAIN...

Ok so we got news that our new place may need a new roof. Meaning maybe moving in January... Good grief!! SO its a may or may not thing until the 3rd roofing guy goes out there. The seller and our real estate guy have been discussing and neither one wants to get ripped off hence the need for 3 estimates, each one getting more expensive for the seller of the property we are buying.

Don't get me wrong I am thankful that if there needs to be a new roof that I won't be shelling out the dough for it (I could put that dough to better use) but I have packed up all of the items I don't NEED to survive and well now its starting to feel like I need to unpack the studio in order to keep my SANITY!!! LOL All that was keeping me going was knowing that I will have an actual studio space that is not shared by my van! Yes, after years of cramming workspace with living or car space it sounded so WONDERFUL!!!!

*sigh*

So we are back to not knowing.

The joy of buying a home.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

And the winner is...

Treasures*created! my one and only entry for the Dorothy Print Giveaway... the new name of this piece is "Who Needs A Jet Plane?"

Thanks Corinna my dear for participating. I know I didn't do a very good job with promoting this here giveaway. I have had a LOT of stuff going on with packing and moving and getting estimates for this and that....buying a house can be very stressful! I never lived in an actual house that we owned so this is all new for me! Lucky my hubby knows what he is doing! LOL
Ok when I am up and running and have my printing station all set up I will have ANOTHER giveaway that I will advertise as much as possible and make sure it is FUN!

I'm off to the land of tape and cardboard boxes!!! Will let you know when/if I emerge from it!!!
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